Trust

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Lord, once again I thank you for the beautiful weather today and the chance I have to observe it while I spend time with you. To think that you could speak all of this into existence; that you are so big and so powerful and yet you take time to speak to me…. just one of your millions of children, is mind boggling. Wow! Thank you Lord! And now, as I sit here, I ask that you would speak again. Teach me another of your truths. Reveal to me a secret of your kingdom that I’ve not known before. You are so awesome and I long to know you more.

Even Jesus faced uncertainty. Just like you, he didn’t have a map laid out before him so that he would know what he would be doing three weeks from now. Remember, my Word says that the Spirit led him into the desert…. so yes, even he knows what it is like to wonder what my will is. But the key is that he took ONE DAY AT A TIME. He just simply went and did what the Spirit led him to do and did not worry about what he would be doing in two days or two weeks or two years. He had faith that I was directing his every day path and that that would eventually lead to the fulfillment of my calling on his life. Realize, Laura, that as long as you seek me, every piece of every day and every person you come in contact with is part of my plan. Even the mundane, every day stuff is part of my will for your life. I put you in YOUR family, in YOUR church, in YOUR city, in YOUR school, in YOUR classes… even at YOUR doctors office, and at YOUR  grocery store at the times I want you there. Do not underestimate the power of my presence in you to touch the lives of those you are around or my power to prepare you for the long-term calling I have placed on your life. This is what the scripture, Philippians 4:6 is talking about when it says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Trusting me whole-heartedly…. that I am leading you every minute of every day, every place you go.

Aside

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Laura, I want you to remember that I will NEVER leave you or forsake you. You will never be too heavy for me to carry. You think of me as a man who would easily tire of carrying someone around for thirty minutes but my arms are huge and strong, the arms that created the universe…. the hands that hold the Earth. Surely with this strength you do not think carrying you and your burdens would be too much for me. Do not feel guilty for leaving your burdens and pain with me. They are but the weight of a grain of sand in my hands… so give them to me and let me keep them.

The Road Ahead

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Lord, thank you for a peaceful nights sleep and for letting me drink from your healing waters again.

Thank you for trying so hard on your studies. You have learned the discipline of endurance and perseverance through your years of school and it will serve you well down the road. Do not be afraid of what lies ahead. I know it seems uncertain in your eyes, but trust me, it is not. Doors WILL  open and you WILL walk through them in your perfect timing if you will continue holding my hand. I love you and will NEVER let you go.

Thank you Lord. You are so good to me!

Intimacy

Image I love you, Lord. Thank you for illuminating Your Word to me so I can see that it is okay to get homesick for heaven as long as I am willing to stay here and reach those that you have called me to.

Lord, I am not sure exactly what your will for me is, but wherever and whatever it is, I am willing to follow you. Whether I am to do the things I feel you want me to do right now or something completely different, I am wiling. I only ask that you will open the doors, help me to see them, and give me the courage to walk right through them. I love you, Lord, and the thought of going to Africa to share your Good News and take care of your children makes me so excited! Thank you for guiding my steps and preparing me for the road that you have laid before me.

I love you too, Laura. You need to trust me with your future. Just as I have told you before… I am in control as long as you keep this attitude of humility, love, and openness, you will not miss my calling or disappoint me or miss my calling. Laura, it is right and natural for you to get homesick for heaven. It is part of your nature to want to be with those you love, and I know you love me, but do not forget… you do not have to wait until you get to heaven. i am with you right now.

I know, Lord, but it is that tangible, face-to-faced encounter that I can not wait for; to look into your eyes, to touch your hair, to lay my head on your chest, sounds so wonderful. I long for that day. Please, Lord, in the mean time, let me know you as intimately as possible while I am still on this earth. Please, Lord, teach me to love, to truly love as you do.

This intimate relationship you ask for is the desire of my heart. Your fellowship and friendship is what this relationship is all about. It is your primary reason for living and everything else should flow out of it. If you can learn this principle and apply it to your life at this young age, you will be able to accomplish so much for me and the two of us will be the best of friends. I, too, long to have you with me and feel your touch, but together we must wait, for there are many others you must bring with you when you come.

Limitations

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Yesterday, I was trying to tell you that I understand your physical limitations and that there was nothing wrong with just resting when that was what your body needed to do. I did not want you to “push past the pain” and force yourself to spend time with me. I am a God of compassion. It is not pleasurable for me to spend time with you if you do not really want to be there. I, by far, more enjoy being there with you when you want to be there with me… sort of like you have told your counselor many times, how you appreciate your mom coming by every night to take care of your physical needs but that a lot of times you just feel like a burden because you can tell she doesn’t really want to be there and is just fulfilling an obligation by coming. When you drag yourself into prayer times, bible reading, etc… you are making ME feel like a burden! You long for someone to spend time with you just because they want to. So do I! You long for genuine love and attention. I feel the same way! Remember, you are made in MY image! I would much rather you just come to spend time with me when you genuinely want to. Those times of fellowship are the ones that I cherish! I don’t want you to spend time with me out of obligation, dragging your feet, just checking another item off your “to do” list.

 

Longing

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I love you Lord! Thank you for illuminating your word to me so that I could see that it is okay to get homesick for heaven as long as I am willing to stay here and reach those who you have called me to.

Laura, it is right and natural for you to get homesick for heaven. It is part of your nature to want to be with those you love and I know that you love me, but don’t forget… you don’t have to wait until you get to heaven to be with me. I am with you right now.

I know, Lord, but it’s that tangible face-to-face encounter that I can’t wait for; to look into your eyes, to touch your hair, to lay my head on your chest, all of these things sound so wonderful. I long for that day. Please, Lord, in the mean time, let me know you as intimately as possible while I am still on this earth. Teach me to love; to truly love as you do.

This intimate relationship you ask for is the desire of my heart. Your fellowship and friendship is what this relationship is all about. It is your primary reason for living and everything else should flow out of it. If you can learn this principle and apply it to your life at this young age, you will be able to accomplish so much for me and the two of us will become the best of friends. I, too, long to have you with me and to feel your touch, but together we must wait, for there are many others you must bring with you when you come.                                                           

                                                                                       Love,   

                                                                                           Papa God

 

 

 

Praise

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Laura, would you let me take this doubt from your mind?This is why praise is so important. When you declare my goodness, when you declare my faithfulness, when you declare my love, it dispels doubt and fear. It helps you to have faith, to trust me, and to depend on me.

These years of tears, pain, and intercession are much like the labor pains of a woman about to give birth. Though the pain and tears last for the night, my joy comes in the morning. The labor is worth it. New life will be born. My child will come home.

Laura, don’t forget that I understand your weaknesses and I am not angry with you when you mess up. I love you and all I ask is that you come to me to ask for forgiveness when you make mistakes. Seek me and you fill find me to be true. Do not cower and hide in your sin and disgrace. Come to me so I can remove it! I have felt your pain. I have carried your weights. I am with you every minute of every day. It is up to you though, to lean on me for strength and to give me those burdens that are too heavy to bear. Trust me Laura! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!

The New Me

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Lord,

Thank you for opening my eyes to see a new truth tonight, that YOU BELIEVE IN ME! Lord, I’ve been taught all my life that I’m unworthy, a nobody, a screw-up, and why would you want to use someone like that? What I need to remember is that that was the OLD me. I am sanctified by you! Thank you Lord!

Now that you realize this, you need to act on it and share it with the people around you. To many Christian, like you, have studied my word and gone to church all of their lives but don’t understand this. But I’ll warn you… pray that you will speak this message with the anointing of my spirit; that this truth will cut deeper than a two-edged sword, piercing the darkness; letting the truth pour through.

Learning

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Thank you, Lord, for teaching me again. I have learned something new in your word for each of the last 3 days and find that exciting.Please continue to show me new things each day as I continue to seek you.

Laura, I delight in showing myself to you and in teaching you new things. It’s like how you love to give Katrina and Mercy gifts and teach them something new. I am the same way. I get excited to see you lay burdens down and pick up new gifts.I love to see your eyes light up when you learn something new.

When you hold onto bondage, it hurts me though. Just like you’ve told your dad and Randy that it hurts you to see them hurt. Imagine how it is for me. I love you way more than you’ll ever love either one of them. So the next time I prompt you, please let go of your burdens and accept the gifts I’m trying to give you.

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Precious Lord, please reveal your heart to me.

My heart hurts when yours hurts. When that deep, gut-wrenching, breathtaking cry comes out, my hands are on your shoulders and the tears run down my cheeks as well. I am with you and I understand your pain.