Lord, once again I thank you for the beautiful weather today and the chance I have to observe it while I spend time with you. To think that you could speak all of this into existence; that you are so big and so powerful and yet you take time to speak to me…. just one of your millions of children, is mind boggling. Wow! Thank you Lord! And now, as I sit here, I ask that you would speak again. Teach me another of your truths. Reveal to me a secret of your kingdom that I’ve not known before. You are so awesome and I long to know you more.

Even Jesus faced uncertainty. Just like you, he didn’t have a map laid out before him so that he would know what he would be doing three weeks from now. Remember, my Word says that the Spirit led him into the desert…. so yes, even he knows what it is like to wonder what my will is. But the key is that he took ONE DAY AT A TIME. He just simply went and did what the Spirit led him to do and did not worry about what he would be doing in two days or two weeks or two years. He had faith that I was directing his every day path and that that would eventually lead to the fulfillment of my calling on his life. Realize, Laura, that as long as you seek me, every piece of every day and every person you come in contact with is part of my plan. Even the mundane, every day stuff is part of my will for your life. I put you in YOUR family, in YOUR church, in YOUR city, in YOUR school, in YOUR classes… even at YOUR doctors office, and at YOUR  grocery store at the times I want you there. Do not underestimate the power of my presence in you to touch the lives of those you are around or my power to prepare you for the long-term calling I have placed on your life. This is what the scripture, Philippians 4:6 is talking about when it says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Trusting me whole-heartedly…. that I am leading you every minute of every day, every place you go.


The Road Ahead


Lord, thank you for a peaceful nights sleep and for letting me drink from your healing waters again.

Thank you for trying so hard on your studies. You have learned the discipline of endurance and perseverance through your years of school and it will serve you well down the road. Do not be afraid of what lies ahead. I know it seems uncertain in your eyes, but trust me, it is not. Doors WILL  open and you WILL walk through them in your perfect timing if you will continue holding my hand. I love you and will NEVER let you go.

Thank you Lord. You are so good to me!



Yesterday, I was trying to tell you that I understand your physical limitations and that there was nothing wrong with just resting when that was what your body needed to do. I did not want you to “push past the pain” and force yourself to spend time with me. I am a God of compassion. It is not pleasurable for me to spend time with you if you do not really want to be there. I, by far, more enjoy being there with you when you want to be there with me… sort of like you have told your counselor many times, how you appreciate your mom coming by every night to take care of your physical needs but that a lot of times you just feel like a burden because you can tell she doesn’t really want to be there and is just fulfilling an obligation by coming. When you drag yourself into prayer times, bible reading, etc… you are making ME feel like a burden! You long for someone to spend time with you just because they want to. So do I! You long for genuine love and attention. I feel the same way! Remember, you are made in MY image! I would much rather you just come to spend time with me when you genuinely want to. Those times of fellowship are the ones that I cherish! I don’t want you to spend time with me out of obligation, dragging your feet, just checking another item off your “to do” list.




I love you Lord! Thank you for illuminating your word to me so that I could see that it is okay to get homesick for heaven as long as I am willing to stay here and reach those who you have called me to.

Laura, it is right and natural for you to get homesick for heaven. It is part of your nature to want to be with those you love and I know that you love me, but don’t forget… you don’t have to wait until you get to heaven to be with me. I am with you right now.

I know, Lord, but it’s that tangible face-to-face encounter that I can’t wait for; to look into your eyes, to touch your hair, to lay my head on your chest, all of these things sound so wonderful. I long for that day. Please, Lord, in the mean time, let me know you as intimately as possible while I am still on this earth. Teach me to love; to truly love as you do.

This intimate relationship you ask for is the desire of my heart. Your fellowship and friendship is what this relationship is all about. It is your primary reason for living and everything else should flow out of it. If you can learn this principle and apply it to your life at this young age, you will be able to accomplish so much for me and the two of us will become the best of friends. I, too, long to have you with me and to feel your touch, but together we must wait, for there are many others you must bring with you when you come.                                                           


                                                                                           Papa God






Laura, would you let me take this doubt from your mind?This is why praise is so important. When you declare my goodness, when you declare my faithfulness, when you declare my love, it dispels doubt and fear. It helps you to have faith, to trust me, and to depend on me.

These years of tears, pain, and intercession are much like the labor pains of a woman about to give birth. Though the pain and tears last for the night, my joy comes in the morning. The labor is worth it. New life will be born. My child will come home.

Laura, don’t forget that I understand your weaknesses and I am not angry with you when you mess up. I love you and all I ask is that you come to me to ask for forgiveness when you make mistakes. Seek me and you fill find me to be true. Do not cower and hide in your sin and disgrace. Come to me so I can remove it! I have felt your pain. I have carried your weights. I am with you every minute of every day. It is up to you though, to lean on me for strength and to give me those burdens that are too heavy to bear. Trust me Laura! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!

The New Me



Thank you for opening my eyes to see a new truth tonight, that YOU BELIEVE IN ME! Lord, I’ve been taught all my life that I’m unworthy, a nobody, a screw-up, and why would you want to use someone like that? What I need to remember is that that was the OLD me. I am sanctified by you! Thank you Lord!

Now that you realize this, you need to act on it and share it with the people around you. To many Christian, like you, have studied my word and gone to church all of their lives but don’t understand this. But I’ll warn you… pray that you will speak this message with the anointing of my spirit; that this truth will cut deeper than a two-edged sword, piercing the darkness; letting the truth pour through.

God Speaks!


At first, I wondered what i should do with this website… what could I do with it that could impact the lives of others? One of the projects I am currently working on is typing up the journals that I kept throughout the years. Most of them are conversations that I had with God.

I think a lot of people, even Christians, in this world do not realize that God desires to speak to them, personally, each and every day. We get so busy with our families, jobs, and even recreation that we hardly ever stop to breathe, much less listen for that still small voice. Many of our prayers are one-liners, shot up in the middle of the day. Or lists of requests that we bring before him as we nod off to sleep. But He longs to talk to us! Not just listen to us.

Yes, He does talk to us through His written word. But there is also His Rhema word (that which is spoken at this moment in time, vs that which God spoke many years ago); that which He speaks straight to your heart.

In the posts that follow, i will share with you some of the conversations I have had with God throughout the years that I feel He is leading me to share. Some of them were recorded many years ago (from as early as the age of 15) and some were recorded very recently. I hope that as you read them God will speak to you as well.

But more than that, I hope you will take the time to listen to Him yourself. He does want to talk to you! I encourage you to enter His presence with worship and begin to open up your heart to Him. Everything that concerns you, concerns Him. He cares about every detail of your life. Nothing you say will make Him angry and nothing you say is a secret to Him. He knows you far better than you know yourself.

So, please, turn off the T.V. and radio, take a journal, pen, and Bible and get off by yourself, and then simply say, “I’m here Father, please speak to me whatever you want me to hear.”

It doesn’t matter if you do this in the morning or night, outside or inside, at church, home, in your car, or in public. I have heard that still, small, voice in my room, at the park, in restaurants, at church, in my car, and countless other places. He is always with me, and He often longs to speak to me… but it is up to me to pause and listen.

May your relationship with God become more intimate than ever before as you hear Him speak His words of love, hope, and a future into your heart!